I've always heard "Keep your friends close, and your enemies closer", but today, it seems you can't tell them apart. It's mind-blowing how things, particularly people, can change so quickly and unexpectedly. One minute, you are friends, then something happens, and they're not the person you thought they were. It's so disappointing. Especially when the change that happens causes the person to hurt you. Hurt you in ways they don't even know. Truth is, though, they don't care what happens to you. They are only worried about themselves.
In case you can't tell, I am referring to someone. Actually, plural someones. Ha. I usually don't call people out like this, but I don't care right now. I'm not going to tell exactly what is going on right now, but I can tell you this- People aren't always who they seem to be. They will ruin your life and reputation all for their own pleasure, pride, and frankly because they have nothing else to do. Even over something as dumb as assumptions. My grandmother always told me "if you didn't see it with your own eyes, don't invent it with your mouth." I always kinda brushed it off, but lately, that has never been truer. It's funny how people will twist situations to make it seem like their thoughts aren't in the wrong. You can't really trust anyone.
I'm beyond ready to move back to Tuscaloosa. All my friends there left their drama and immaturity in high school. The recent situation caused a lot of tears and lost friendships because of stupid drama and jealousy. I'm not a dramatic person. I try my best to stay away from it, and yet somehow, I always get dragged into it when I come back to Jemison. I wish things had played out differently in the situation I'm facing now, but it's over and done with. There's nothing we can change now. There were things said that will never be forgotten. Things were done that will effect me for a long time. And if y'all are reading this (y'all know who y'all are), I'm sorry things ended up the way they are. I'm sorry I believed y'all wouldn't hurt me and y'all actually cared about me. I'm also not "scared" to respond to you when you try to get in touch with me; I just have nothing to say to you right now. It will take me awhile to forgive y'all for what happened, but I can't right now. But, I will forgive you. I forgive you because God has forgiven me. I will be praying for y'all.
And to everyone else reading, sorry this is kind of confusing and emotional, but I had to vent publicly somehow. Anyways, now that I've written about that, that's the end of it. No more about that, let me update you on life, since it's been awhile :)
I am beyond ready to move to Tuscaloosa. Me and Kelsey have a 2 bedroom apartment! And I'm so excited. It's gonna be adorable. I've never been so excited to get kitchen appliances in my life. :) Also, this weekend is my home church's youth beach retreat. I'm so excited. I'm a team leader this year, along with Kelsey, Ashlyn and Kyle. Vince is doing recreation. Speaking of which, we are doing unbelievably amazing. He's such a great guy. :)
That's about it really. Jemison is just boring, haha. So until next time... :)
