Slackin, but this is pointless.

I've totally been slacking on this blog....I blame my lack of efficient internet in good ole Jemison. ANyways, here's what's been going on since Christmas...


Sunday (Christmas!): I woke up extremely early. I think it was from excitement, which doesn't make sense, because when I was younger, I used to be hard to wake up on Christmas morning. Anyways, me and Sawyer were anxious to get in the living room, but had to wait FOREVERRRR on Madison to wake up and put her contacts in. So, we finally got to open presents. I had been hoping for the new iPhone 4S, since I had such a crappy phone that worked 40% of the time. Everytime I mentioned it, mom laughed and said in my dreams...Well, I got down to two presents, both the size of shoeboxes, and I told mom, "I've given up hope on my iPhone." I opened a box, shoes. Cute shoes, but not my phone. Low and behold, the last present held my new iPhone 4! It's not a 4S, like I wanted, but beggars can't be choosers. After about an hour of presents and comparing what all we got, we went to church. There weren't a lot of people there, which really surprised me, because I mean, well, it is a celebration of our Savior's birth. I sat with Kelsey and Wesley and I really enjoyed the service. After church, we headed to Aunt Brenda's house where I ate so much potato soup and ham, and played with Evie and John. Overall, it was a great day full of food, fun, and remembrance of Jesus' birth. :)


Monday: I ate lunch with Skyler and went to Walmart with her. As soon as I got home, I accompanied Mom and Madison to Target, I bought orange juice and cough drops (because Madison AND John were both sick Christmas) and then we got Icees. 


Tuesday: I woke up with my throat hurting, so I took down 2 cough drops. I finally got to see Vince for the first time in a week (he'd been in FL with family for Christmas). He got me Taco Bell, then went to play basketball with the boys. And since I got drug into going, he gave me money and his car to get an Icee ;) We went back to his house afterward and watched Jackass until I got sleepy and left.


Wednesday (TODAY): Well, I got absolutely no sleep. Between the raging headache and lack of breathing out of my nose, it was miserable. I woke up at 10 am, fell back asleep at 11, woke back up at 2. I found out me and mom both have sinus infections (thanks Madison). I finally got Vaporrub for tonight, so I can sleep in peace. :) Then, me, Vince, and our friends Tyndall and Cody went to eat Mexican and iceskating. Then, back to Vince's for That's 70s Show. I was starting to get miserable again, so I am now home, high on cold medicine and about to sleep heavenly with my Vapor Rub. :)


Thanks for reading about my pointless week, haha. Tomorrow I get Cheesecake Factory with my boy! He's precious! Hope everyone had a GREAT Christmas!!!

Hang in There

I hate what the world has become. It's even scary to think about. Murders. Homosexuality. Polygamy. Drugs. Rape. Politics. Hate. The world we live in is terrifying. God did not intend for His beautiful creation to turn out this way. But it is. SIN is why. It started with Adam and Eve. And it ends with us. God is real, and God is coming to save His people. Some people get freaked out thinking the Rapture is getting closer and closer. Not me. I have hope. I have faith. I have Jesus. And I, for one, can't wait to go Home. So, fellow believers, hang in there. He's coming.

Finals

Well, finals week is halfway over for me, and I have to say so far I'm quite pleased. I've taken 3 of my 5, and now have to wait til Thursday night at 7 pm to take my next one. I continue to be reminded that I am so blessed that I go to THE University of Alabama. One of the top schools for my major. And one of the best schools in the country.


Anyways, as weird as it seems, I'm not really ready for Christmas break. I mean, I'm ready for Christmas, but I don't wanna leave Tuscaloosa. I have so many friends here and hate that I won't get to see them for like a month. :( Luckily, Vince is having a tacky Christmas party for our little group (Zach, Katie, AJ, Garin) on Friday, so that is motivation to make it through the week. It will be fun hanging out with my best friends but kinda sad that Saturday I'm going back home...to Chilton County. While there's a few people and things I wanna see and do (Kelsey, Skyler, Jordy, Madi, Hickory Chip, San Marcos), I'm really dreading going back. It's not that I don't appreciate the place that basically raised me, but I'm in a different stage in my life now. Chilton County doesn't have enough opportunity for me.


SPEAKING OF WHICH, your girl is applying for an internship over the summer with Wake Up Alabama. Can't wait! Getting closer and closer to my dream of anchoring. :)

Blast from the Past

If my post rubs you the wrong way or offends you, I apologize but this is my blog. Don't like it, don't read it. I'm just gonna be blunt and honest...


I am in one of the saddest moods I've been in inawhile. I was creeping on Facebook, as usual. I was looking at one of my old friend's profile pictures. I started looking at all the pictures...she was beautiful. I almost started tearing up though...because it's almost like I didn't recognize her. Needless to say, it's not her fault we aren't close anymore, but it made me sad we weren't. Then it got me thinking...I'm not really friends with anybody that I was in high school. I had my group in high school. There was about 5 of us, we were all really close, and did everything together. Sleepovers, hanging out, cheerleading, ect. We were part of each other's families. We planned our weddings and children together. We were going to be best friends forever. 


Then after graduation, I kind of got "shunned" from the group, if you will. They stopped inviting me to events. They stopped texting and calling me. They stopped being my friend. The main reason most of them did is because there was a bunch drama when Vince started liking me. (which me and said people BOTH handled that situation wrong.) There was all kinds of miscommunication, but the way everyone acted towards me when it happened made me really depressed. I was thinking of ways to fix everything, so that everyone was happy. I even expressed I would change stuff for them to not be mad at me. It didn't matter. Even though "everything was cool between us", I could still feel the tension and the unwantedness. The fact that I was trying to mend the broken friendships, but they were still rejecting me and not putting in an effort to fix it. It honestly made me mad. After 3 months of trying to win my friends back, I decided it wasn't worth it. They were all gonna stay friends and leave me out. I tried to act like it didn't bother me and I was perfectly fine on my own. But I wasn't. They were my girls. I didn't really have any other friends. They were all I had and they were gone. The week before everyone left for college, I got super depressed because I kept seeing pictures and status updates with my group of friends hanging out and having going away parties. I wasn't invited. I'm pretty sure I wasn't even missed.


Luckily, as fate had it, college introduced me to a completely different group of girls. My life long best friends. God knew I needed a close knit group of girls in my life to keep me sane and to rely on. He knew to fix my broken heart, I needed ADX. They taught me to trust again and how to have girlfriends again. 


Now, don't get me wrong, I am in no way mad at or hate my old friends from high school now. I didn't write this blog to call anyone out or make anyone feel bad. I also don't wanna make y'all think bad of these girls, because they are truly awesome people and they were the best friends I could have asked for to experience high school with. I simply want to tell my feelings right now. I was really upset for a long time, and it took me up until recently to fully forgive them in my heart. But that's the awesomeness of God. He heals your heart and makes it possible to forgive. I wrote this blog just to express that I do miss them, even after everything that happened between all of us. We went through so much together. A lot of firsts. First football games, first kisses, first dates, first cars, proms, ect. It just makes me sad we couldn't extend the memories past Jemison High School. 

Study

So, tomorrow is the start of finals week and I, naturally, am procrastinating by baking cupcakes and hanging out with some of my sisters. They're great! And here's my shoutout to Casey, aka Ice-T! Haha, she's a devoted and loyal follower of my blog and it warms my heart to know she religiously reads my random posts! So thanks Casey, for being motivation to keep writing!


Anyways, finals start tomorrow. I have one everyday except Wednesday, and two tomorrow. :/ AHHH. I feel like I'm prepared but I also feel I need to study...mixed emotions. Ha, anyways, got cupcakes to bakeeee. ADIOS!

Things Will Change

Change kills. It's just one little word, but it makes everything different.

Even those of us who resist change, will someday have to face it. It happens subconsiously anyways, all the time. It's funny how you can look back, and remember everything, but have no way to return to it. No matter how many times you convince yourself that that certain thing or a certain person will never change, it will end up changing. I don't mean to be a pessimist, but look around you...everything is changing. It hurts. Change hurts. If anybody ever tells you that it doesn't, be my guest and tell them to shove it. But, I've come to realize that we need it. Without it, where would we be? Who would we be? Exactly. We wouldn't. It sucks though, just how bad it hurts. The hardest part is the letting go, the releasing. Sometimes I don't even think it's physically possible... 

Jealousy

****Sorry I've been slacking on my blogging...it's Dead Week, and I have indeed been dead. Anyways, I felt like I needed to post this, not sure why, just felt the tug on my heart to post something about my past and current struggles. Hope it helps!

"For I can see that you are full of bitter jealousy and are held captive by sin." -Acts 8:17

I'm a jealous person. I've ALWAYS been a jealous person. It's by no means something I am proud of and it's something I really struggle with everyday. Ever since I was a little kid. I'd be the girl who would get mad (upset/disappointed/ect.) when someone was picked over me in a game. I also was the one who got mad at another girl if the boy I liked didn't like me and liked her instead. The only difference between then and now is that then, jealousy was just the start of a bad habit, and now it can get me in a lot of unnecessary drama and hurt. And not necessarily jealousy in my relationships with other people, but just jealousy in general. 

I realize that envy is a sign of immaturity and insecurity. Which, hello, I'm 19 years old, I'm not fully mature yet: spiritually, emotionally (or physically for that matter). And as for insecurity, I believe deep down, everyone is guilty of being insecure about something or another at some point in his or her lives. Maybe it's because they don't feel good enough for someone or something, so they feel a need to "hate" on the people they do feel are good enough. And, we really shouldn't feel that way. Or maybe they don’t have something that’s as cool or as cute as another person. Something I have lost sight in the past is that it doesn't matter whether or not you're good enough on Earth. Yeah sure, maybe the boy you likes picked the girl with the better body over you. So what? "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life." - John 3:16. Guess what? God thinks you're good enough. He thinks you're so good in fact, He sent His only son to die for us. I don't have any kids, but I'm pretty sure sending my son to die for filthy sinners like us would be the last thing I'd want to do.

Something else I've realized while reflecting on my jealousy issue is that the world isn't gonna stop for you and most people aren't going to change their ways to accommodate you or your feelings. Most of the time, people don't care if something makes you jealous or not, they'll continue to do it anyway. As much as I wish it wasn't true, there's only two ways to fix the issue. You can either A) continue to stay a jealous person and (as the Bible says) let it literally rot you and your body or B) Suck it up and seek God to help you.

I’ve chosen the latter of the options, and honestly, it’s helped me SO much. Not even lying. God has given me insight, patience, and even other people to deal with my jealousy. Even though people may not notice a huge noticeable difference right away, over the past few months, I’ve definitely noticed a vast difference in my attitude and relationships with other people. Jealousy is very common, yes, but when I start to ponder on this issue, it really is pointless. Without being (as) jealous, I have been happier and all aspects of my relationships have been 100x better. Now, not to say I’m completely over this, by any means. But, through Christ and some wonderful friends who keep me sane, I am working everyday to become better with it.

And that ladies and gentlemen, is God once again redirecting my focus on Him. He really does work in mysterious ways. :)

OVERRR

As November comes to an end, I am kinda sad that the daily blessings thing is over. :/ I thought it'd be hard to think up 30 different things to be thankful for, but it was pretty easy.

Day 29: I am thankful for sweatpants. Seriously. Who ever thought of them = genius.

Day 30: I am thankful I have 30+ things to be thankful for! 

Cause ya had a bad day

Day 28: I am thankful that my bad days aren't really that bad.


I would consider today a "bad day". I woke up with 10 minutes to get ready, only to realize it was raining and about 40 degrees outside. My rainboots are in Jemison, and my rainjacket was in my trunk. So, I got my rainjacket and realized I had 15 minutes to get to class...so I drove. When I got to class, I proceeded to slip on the floor from my wet tennis shoes, fall on my butt while hitting my head on a desk at the same time. Takes skill, I know. As if that wasn't bad enough, I went to pick up Lakeside to-go and this guy runs into me as I'm leaving. I spilled everything in my carryout plate. I wanted to cry. I went back and got one hot dog and protected it with my life. Vince texted me and invited me over to cheer me up. So, I went over and talked to him, Garin and Zach for a bit. Then, took Vince to class. Just when I thought my day couldn't get worse...tragedy struck again. I was rear-ended while turning onto McFarland Blvd. Awesome. I felt bad because the woman didn't look like she had a lot of money, and luckily, there was no damage to either car. Now, I'm waiting on a pizza, hoping nothing bad happens with that, because I'm starving.


I'm so glad that my bad days consist of petty things like what I said. I spend time complaining when there are other people out there who are seriously having bad days. Like, they have an terminal illness or they are trying to gather their one meal for the day. We take a lot of things for granted, and I pray God humbles me and I start to not take advantage of the things He's blessed me with. I'll leave you with this, "There's a blessing in every situation". Have a great day and pray mine gets a little better! 

Create

Day 27: I am thankful for creativity and that God blessed me with a little bit of it. How boring would the world be without it? Anddd, so glad God gives me ideas...my Pi babies are gonna have the most ballin' names ever. Any guesses? ;)

IRON BOWL

Ahhh, my life since my last post has been cray cray! I'll give my "thankful fors" then what's been going on!
Day 23: I am thankful for the Bible. It's been placed on this earth to instruct us how to live and give us direction on what to do when situations arise. It also warns us about what's to come and most importantly, it teaches us for to be saved from Hell! 


Day 24: Since I've already said my family, I am thankful for Vince's family. I hung out with his immediate and some extended family on Thanksgiving Night, and it was really relaxing.


Day 25: I am thankful for my ADX family, the DQ's. They are literally exactly the people I need when I am having a bad day or someone to just talk to. God is in control of everything and He didn't fail when it came to placing me in the most awkward, awesome family! ;)


Day 26: I am thankful for being born and raised an Alabama fan. Kind of low and stuff, but I can't imagine being raised on orange and blue...grosss.


So, my weekend, like I said above, has been absolutely crazy! It started Friday afternoon, Vince, AJ, and  I made our way down to Auburn for the Iron Bowl. We got to Auburn around 5. I'm not gonna lie, there's nothing, I repeat NOTHING, to do there. So, we hit up downtown with our friend Wesley, who lives in Auburn. We ate at Cheeburger, Cheeburger, which b-t-dubs needs to come to Tuscaloosa. We ate til we about popped, then headed back to Wesley's. We hung out there for a little bit with a few other fellow Chilton Countyers (new word),  Zach and Katie, then went over to our friend from church, Matthew's house. He had a bonfire, so we chilled there until I was ready to go to bed. I didn't get much sleep, due to the fact I was on a couch which wasn't comfortable and it was like 50 degrees. But I managed. We all met back about 11 to go to the stadium. We got Subway for lunch and headed to Jordan Hare.


Now, our original plan was just to tailgate and watch the game at the student center or something, unless we came across cheap tickets. AJ found one for $125, and since he's the only Auburn fan of our friends, he naturally bought it. Chase and D already had tickets. That left me, Vince, Katie and Zach. Luckily for us, Vince found a pair on the 50 yard line for $80 each, so we bought them. So, we ended up having a great view of the game, although we were definitely the minority. But that's ok. I had the sweetest old couple beside me who lost their house in the 4/27 tornado. (Pray for them) And, of course, with the good comes the bad. We had an obnoxious couple behind us. The man liked to argue every call made against Auburn and gave his two cents about everything. And his wife, or friend, or whatever she was, was an Indian. Literally, she made indian noises the entire game. 


So, like God has it planned this year, Bama won in a 41-14 victory. It's always a wonderful feeling winning college football's biggest rivalry in the opposing team's stadium. ;) We headed back home after the game, and after a pit stop at Red Robin (YUMMM), I am finally home and about to catch up on much needed sleep. Back to Tuscaloosa tomorrow. :) 
Peace and Blessings! 

Internet killed the video star.

Day 22: I am thankful for technology. We watched a video in interpersonal communications today that cracked me up and made me thankful for our updated and ever changing technology. It was about before online dating, they had video dating. Not that I want to do either but I'm thankful we have the choice to online instead of video. Here's the video...Who would you pick?

:)

‎"Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord and not for men" - Colossians 3:23

That's my new encouraging verse! Update...I am ADX's new pledge mom for the Pi and Rho pledge classes :) I'm so excited and am already praying for my new babies! A fellow sister posted the verse above and it applies to the new E-Board positions...we aren't doing it for ourselves, it's for the glory of the Lord, and I pray we keep the right mind as we go into the next 2 semesters. 

Day 19: I am thankful for clean water so I can bathe and drink without getting sick.

Day 20: I am thankful for Sundays, where I can go to church, be in the Word and just relax. :)

Day 21: I am thankful for laughter. How lame and boring would the world be without it?

That is it. Next update will be after Thanksgiving Break so until then, have a safe and happy holidays! And remember what the holiday is all about! :)

ahhh yeahhh

Day 18: I am thankful for second chances and the ability to learn from mistakes  I've always been told you can only see something as a mistake if you admit you were wrong, and you take it as an opportunity to learn and grow as a person. I'm very blessed to be surrounded by people who have faith in me even when I don't have faith in myself and accept me as I am, mistakes and all.


Tonight is Dayglow in Birmingham. And I'm so excited. I'm off to do the rest of my homework so I can enjoy this upcoming weekend stress free. Blessings :)

God's will and an update!

Ok, busy blog post ahead. Here's days 16 & 17...
Day 16: I am thankful for God's will and plan for my life. Whether it be who I will marry, what career I will go into, or even if I get what position I want on Executive Board for ADX, I know God has a plan. And it doesn't matter what I want, if it's what God wants, and I am willing to trust and follow in His plan for me, it will happen. “It is better to trust in the LORD than to put confidence in man.” - Psalm 118:8 I truly believe that. If we go around trying to make our own wills and our own plans, it won't work out. God knows what is best for each and every person. And just because it's what we WANT, doesn't mean it's what God wants or thinks we need. Just my thoughts...

Day 17: I am thankful for warmth. Physical and spiritual. The physical, obviously because the weather is FINALLY changing and my fingers are little ice cubes. And spiritual warmth...it's strange to phrase it like that, but I mean, I think of it like that. When I am having a bad day, I can just go to God and I automatically feel this lightness in the air, which I refer to as spiritual warmth. Simply because it feels good and makes me comfortable, and once again, gives me indication that God IS real and does care for me.

Donny recovering in Tampa!

And my update for today is about Donny. (Refer to earlier posts). Donny has made sooooo much progress in the past 2 months! He got out of his coma and was sent to Germany, where he recovered enough to be able to be sent to Baltimore, where he recovered even more. He's currently in Tampa at a Veteran's Hospital. And the coolest, most awesome thing (in my opinion) is that President Barack Obama personally gave Donny a Purple Heart. I got chills knowing one of my friends received the military's highest honor. It's amazing how much progress he's made. From going to "we think he may not survive" to "he'll be back to somewhat normal in 6 months to a year". Unbelievable. And only one reason behind that- God. He is truly looking out for us.

back on track!

Day 15: I am thankful for friendship. And along with that, here's some bios for some of my closest friends. I have a long list, so bare with me.

Vince!

My best friend/boyfriend is Vince. I could go on for days and days about how much he means to me and how much better of a person he's made me, but I'll save the mushy stuff ;) Just know he's the best guy I've ever met and helps me grow spiritually and emotionally all the time. Can't ask for a better love.


Now....for my friends back home. 

Kels!

This is Kelsey. She has been my best friend from birth. Well, her birth anyways, since I'm 6 months older. She's super athletic, especially basketball. During high school, we were connected at the hip. We always have weird strange times together. She's transferring to UA next year, and I'm so excited. :)

Jordy and Sky High!

Next is Skyler and Jordan. My partners in crime from middle school til high school. We graduated together and were inseparable. Jordy keeps us not uptight and always is fun. Skyler is the voice of reason in a lot of situations, haha. I love them both dearly and miss them so much.
Now, on to my UA friends/sistas....


The next few pictures are of my wonderful pledge sisters, Megan, Morgan, Julia, Brooke, Madison, Shannon and Tara...they are truly the best pledge class I could have asked for. They always make me laugh, and we always have a good time, no matter what we're doing! I just love them to death and they are definitely some of my best friends!

Pearl and Madi!

Rubs and Sunny!

Moo and Sassy!

Tara!

Ok, now on the to the old ladies...just kidding! But the next three girls are older than me but have made such an impact on my life.

Brooke!

This lovely lady would be Brooke, my big sister in the sorority! She is just like me...except a lot prettier and shorter. Ha, our personalities mesh so well though, furreal. We are very similiar and she's helped me through some pretty tough stuff. I love hanging out with her and I can't wait to get closer and closer. :) I love my big!

Rex and Sam!

Last, but not least would be Sam and Alysa. They are my pledge mom and "auntie". Not only are they really fun to be around, but they are awesome encouragers and great advice givers. They are wonderful role models. And I love them to pieces!  

That's just a little bit of about the precious people in my life! I've had friendships in my life come and go, but I'm pretty positive these are here to stay. I'm constantly reminded how lucky and blessed I am to have such great friendships with these girls and Vince. They are always there to love, trust and confide in. Have a blessed day everyone!

5 missing days :(

Ahhh, I'm so behind on my November blessings!! I've been writing them down, just haven't had time (or motivation) to blog them in detail. So, allow me recap a little on the last 5 days...


Day 10- I am thankful for shoes. I never realized how blessed we are to have shoes to protect our feet from cold/heat/sharp objects. I stepped on a staple and it didn't hurt me thanks to my tennis shoes.


Day 11- I am thankful for late girls nights with my sisters. Even if we're stuffing our faces with pizza and brownies while watching Dallas Cowboys Cheerleaders and Say Yes to the Dress. And dying our hair with Kool Aid ;)


Day 12- I am thankful for love. Not only the love of my family, friends and boyfriend, (even though those are some of the BEST loves), but the never failing love of our Savior. Love is an amazing thing and I can't imagine going through life without being loved or loving in return. Love makes the world go round.


Day 13- I am thankful for food. We take it for granted. Even if there's "nothing to eat" while staring at a full fridge or pantry shelf. I am blessed with more than enough food, while some people have little to no food at all. 


Day 14- Today, I am thankful for forgiveness and the ability to forgive. The bible says an unforgiving heart and bitterness is like a poisonous root that slowly kills your soul. (Hebrews 12:15) I have a difficult time forgiving but God gives me the strength to forgive. After all, He forgave me for living a rotten dirty sinful life...I'm not better than anyone else, so I should forgive.


Please, blog readers, be praying for me. I have such a stressful week ahead of me. Between papers, speeches, sorority obligations, and a few unspokens, I am one jittery, overwhelmed little girl. But there's nothing I can't do through God. He'll pull me through this week. And with the help of my friends and Vince. I really am so blessed, and I should NEVER forget that. :)

Encourage!

Day 9: I am thankful for encouragement. 


The reason behind this: I have been thinking about running for pledge mom of ADChi since I pledged. I just think it'd be really fun and I could really impact some girl's life. I kind of put that thought away though, because when talking about that position, nobody really suggested me so I figured I wouldn't be good. So I decided I'd run for secretary instead, since I took over for Rex one day at chapter. Well, I went to talk to Rexy today about secretary and she suggested I should run for pledge mom. Me? Pledge Mom? I got excited at the thought that my old thoughts were actually being suggested. She went on to encourage me that I should run and that other people thought I'd do a good job at it too, and she just built me up with confidence! So, I am now going to run for pledge mom and secretary. I'm kinda nervous though, because I want a little sister. But, if I am pledge mom I'll have like 20 babies and if I'm secretary I'll get a little. I just don't wanna regret the decision I decide to make...

November blessings!

November. It's the month of thanksgiving, literally speaking and spiritually to me, ha. So, there's this really awesome thing on facebook going around where everyday in November you put down one thing you're thankful for. Whether big or small, important or goofy. It's all about thankfulness. I'm 8 days behind so I'll briefly do my first 8 days right now :)


November 1- I am thankful for the love of my Lord and Savior. Without Him, I wouldn't be here. Nothing would be possible. And I'd burn in Hell for all eternity. I'm forever grateful and love Him with all my heart.


November 2- I am thankful for my family. They're super supportive and love me despite everything I do. 


November 3- I am thankful for my boyfriend. He teaches me day by day to become a better person and how to love unselfishly. 

November 4- I am thankful for my ADX sisters. They're the best and I have the best time with them.


November 5- I am thankful for being able to go to the University of Alabama and all the academic opportunities I get to encounter to better my career.


November 6- I am thankful for being healthy. 


November 7- I am thankful for my best friends. Kelsey, Skyler (happy bday!) and many others. They keep me sane and I love them.


November 8- I am thankful for the beautiful day God provided today. It's warm but not too hot, and it's WONDERFUL! :)

Fried oreos and corndogs

Typical college dinner. Corndog and fried oreos. NOM. Haha, anyways here's what's up lately.


Sorry for my weird, random emotional post yesterday. I let my emotions get the best of me sometimes. After I vented on this, lol, I immediately prayed for patience and peace. And just like that, I felt God's arms around me. It's amazing how a simple, perfect prayer in a desperate hour can take effect almost right then. :) God's love is unconditional.


ALSO, I found out Jana Kramer, from One Tree Hill and a singer of a beautiful song called "I Won't Give Up", came to Rick and Bubba yesterday!!! :( Soooo jealousssss.


So, I normally don't brag about people and I don't mean to be cheesy but I HAVE to write about Vince. He just texted me with a situation with one of our mutual friends. There's a bunch of pointless drama going on over something stupid and said friend texted Vince after he said something to her. He gave very good advice to her, and it made me realize how blessed I am to have him as a boyfriend. He is a wonderful person. One of the best people I've ever met. Seriously. He has always known the right thing to say, the best advice, and one of the most holy men I've met. Just thought I'd let y'all know, he's legit. And all mine ;) hehe jkayyy, but seriously, I don't know anybody as great as him. Sure, we get on each other's nerves sometimes, but I mean, conflict happens to everyone. EVERYONE. But, yeah...


Ok, that's all I've got. Sorry for the boredom.... have a blessed rest of the week and ROLL TIDE ROLLLLLL :)

Grrrrawl

UGHDIAFDSJFJNDALGINDK why do I get so upset so easily?!?!?!?

let her cry

After crying some, for no reason.

How freakin depressing of a blog entry is that? "Let her cry". It's a song by Hootie and the Blowfish. It's so true. I mean, nothing bad has happened today to me. I just feel like I need to cry. And guys, here's some advice...when a girl says she just needs to cry for no reason, just hug her and well, let her cry.


Isn't that so weird? Sometimes we cry, just because. No particular reason other than you just need to.

Baaaaa

First news: Our pledges are now JA's :) I'm so excited for them! Andddd me, along with my lovely Xi pledge sisters, are now officially active members of ADX! Hoooray! I'm constantly reminded of how blessed I am to have found such wonderful women of Christ to call my sisters and my best friends!


Anyways, enough cheesiness. I hate group projects. So much. I have one for interpersonal communications tomorrow. Ahhhh. At least I only have to do the bibliography and talk for like 2 minutes. :)
Ok, I can't make up my mind on what I wanna talk about. Hmm, this weekend. It was fun. Friday, we had an alumni dinner thing and then I went out with the boys. lol, my usual weekend thing. Then Saturday, I went to Vince's to pick him and AJ up for the game and Vince flipped me COMPLETELY upside down behind his couch. :( Not cool. Bama vs Tennessee was awesome. So crunkkk. Ahh, I'm in no mood to type correctly...adios!!

Gone.

Gone - the lyrics say it all. That's all I'm gonna say.

STRESSSSS

I usually handle stress pretty well. I don't let it show that I'm stressed and I am pretty under control. But yesterday, I completely broke down from stress. I have such a busy week. Speech due tomorrow, just started today. Initiation week for our baby lambs. Group project for another class. Just everything is finally happening at once. I went so long being really content and not extremely busy to just being bombarded by school. Last night, I had chapter. Like usual. The group project was meeting at 8:30, I got out of chapter by  9:20, ran across the quad in 4 inch heels and through sprinklers, btw, only to get told they were done meeting and I have to do the outline since I can't ever meet. Uhhhh. I ran for nothing. And they are meeting on another day when I can't meet. Awesome. The rest of the group was on the way leaving when I got there and while passing them they gave such mean looks to me. I can't help I was busy and I even told them before they planned this. So, anyways, while I waited for Vince to pick me up on the steps of Phifer, I felt tears come to eyes. Wait, why am I crying? I don't cry for nothing. As I sat and thought why was I crying? I came to the solution, I was extremely stressed. And the fact I haven't cried in so long probably factored in too. So, when Vince got me, I just broke down in tears, venting to him and God bless him, he listened and tried to help me. Even made me a cheeseburger, Such a sweet man :)


Anyways, today was slightly stressful as well. I made a plan I was gonna clean my room after class, do homework, then work on my speech. I ended up skipping literature because my head hurt. But, I'm happy to report that after some deep prayer with God, my room is clean and I'm done with my speech. :) It's amazing what happens when you let God take control.

Things I Don't Understand.

I need to vent a little. Some things people post via facebook/twitter/whatever, just don't make sense to me at all. Things from love and relationships just to random quotes people post. I mean, honestly, some just aren't true at all. Let me give you examples...


1. "You know the relationship is old when the "I" is taken out of "I love you".
-Not necessarily true. Me and Vince say "love you" alot. It doesn't mean our relationship is getting old or we're getting tired of each other. It could mean we're on the phone and it's just a quick casual "love you". Or say, you're extremely tired and you just forget the "I". I think the "I" is really implied. The fact that the word "love" is still being used is a good indicator they're still into you and not getting tired of you or it's "old".


2. "I don't have an attitude problem, you just can't handle my personality."
-To the person who posted this one, I'm pretty sure it's that you have an attitude problem.


3. "Friendship is not capable of ending, for if it ends, it's only because it never existed."
-Nope. Not true at all. If it never existed, then you wouldn't have called it a FRIENDSHIP ending. I can't really explain in words my feelings on this one because I'm terrible at phrasing, but I'll leave it at this...it's possible to have had a true, blue friendship and it end. It did exist. 


Anyways, I could go on and on, but I'm sleepy. Adios.

iTired

So, it's 1:41 AM currently as I am typing and guess where I am...outside. At the AT&T store. Waiting for the new iPhone for Vince. It's about 55 degrees and we are legit in a line outside in lawn chairs. Katie and Zach just went to get sunflower seeds and a bathroom break, Vince is cat napping beside me, and I'm typing my blog. We ate Taco Bell and are pulling an allnighter, because the store doesn't open until 8 AM. That's right...7 hours from now. If this isn't true college life, I'm not sure what is. True friendship is what it is. I have class at 9 AM, so no sleep is gonna equal a very sleepy/delusional Lauchlan. Awesome.

Count Your Many Blessings

"Too Blessed to Be Stressed"

Mi familia in Belize.

That statement above is my new motto. Think about it, it's so true. If you're reading my blog, you're more blessed than over half the world to even have computer/internet access. I often forget how merciful and loving my God truly is to me. He blessed me with an amazing family who supports me in whatever I do. He blessed with me with awesome friends that I can literally trust with my life. He blessed with me a phenomenal boyfriend who is also my best friend and helps me be a better person. He blessed with me a good education. He blessed me with a non violent childhood. He blessed me with a roof over my head. HE BLESSED ME.

My handsome man.

I could go on and on about what all I have, but don't deserve. I sometimes and most of the time wish I had more or different things in my life. God automatically slaps me in the face and says, "well Lauchlan, is what I gave you not sufficient?" It makes me think. He gave me more than enough. He gives more than I need, because I am His child and He wants the best for me. He does the same thing when I start to think I am having a bad day. At least I am crying and feeling bad inside a warm apartment. At least I have something to stuff my face with when I'm sad. It's mindbloggling what God can show you when you get over yourself and focus on Him.

My girls. <3 minus Kelsey and my big, Brooke.

That's all my thoughts for tonight. Just I am happy with what God has given me and the people He sent me. :)

Be Still

Today has been so overwhelming. Not really today as a whole, but tonight. I love helping people with their problems and listening. I feel like that's one of my strengths, is that I am a good listener. There's only one problem...I think I am too compassionate. (At lack for better words) Like, when I listen to people's problems, I feel their pain. I don't know why I do, and I don't try to, but fact of the matter is that I do. Usually, it isn't much of a problem, because I only have one person at a time talking to me about a certain problem. But tonight, I feel like it was one after the other asking me for advice. Which, don't get me wrong, I am MORE than happy to help and listen, but my heart has a hard time handling it. For instance, one situation my friend and her boyfriend were having space issues. I've been there before, I felt the pain in her shaking voice while she was telling me what was happening. Then she said she was having second thoughts about what she wants to do with her life. Again, I can relate. (refer to previous blog) Another girl was telling me about how her boyfriend is lying to her. Not that I have really experienced that lately but I have experienced it before. While reading her texts, I felt her pain. And a few months ago, a friend told me she had an abortion and her ex boyfriend abused her. I literally cried.


I don't know why I am all of a sudden feeling so bad about other people's problems. I almost feel it's my duty to solve their problems when they come to me, and if I don't give them the right advice and something goes wrong, it's my fault and I let them down. That is something I HATE. Letting people down. I don't know why I am so upset though. I really can't explain it. I was on the phone with Vince a second ago and I think I offended him because I said I didn't really wanna talk to him about this right now. But I honestly don't know what to say. He asked why I was upset, and I really honestly don't know. I guess I haven't really gotten upset in a while so it's been building up and now with everyone else having burdens, it's tipped me over the edge. While I would NEVER show this weakness in person, my heart breaks for my friends when they are hurting. I wish I could help them. I wish I could fix it. I pray for God to fix it.


It's not my place to play God and be the "Wonderful Consoler". I know that. THe verse that keeps crossing my mind tonight is the one in the picture above. Psalm 46:11. Be still and know I am God. I have to quit worrying and know God is still the Almighty God that He has always been and everything will be ok for my friends.

¿en serio?

Wow. People can be so rude and mean sometimes. That is all.